I finally worked up the courage to go to a yoga class today. I’ve been going to gym but just to do cardio and weights, and I’m not really present for it: I ignore my body and just push through waiting for the session to be done. I’m supremely uncomfortable in my body: that weak, […]Read More How emotional abuse tore my body apart – Part 1
Annihilation noun 1. an act or instance of annihilating, or of completely destroying or defeating someone or something: the brutal annihilation of millions of people. 2. the state of being annihilated; total destruction; extinction: fear of nuclear annihilation. 3. Physics. a) Also called pair annihilation. the process in which a particle and antiparticle unite, annihilate […]Read More Annihilation: the legacy of domestic abuse
Explicit language warning. Victims and survivors of domestic violence are let down by the systems meant to protect them over and over again. For me one of the worst violations happened by my psychiatrist. There is mounting evidence that adults who have been traumatised as children are being misdiagnosed as having personality disorders or mental […]Read More Domestic violence victims and the misdiagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder
Trigger warnings: sexual abuse, sexual coercion. I believe sexual coercion is a form of sexual abuse and when in an intimate relationship is a form of domestic violence. It is damaging to the very core of a person’s psyche and I hope my story will help others not familiar with what sexual coercion is get […]Read More Sexual Coercion as Domestic Violence
How do you catch a cloud and pin it down? How do you find a word that describes the effects of non-physical abuse on the psyche and advocate for yourself when most people think physical bruises must be present for abuse to have occurred? I’ll stop ruining a beloved song from one of my favourite […]Read More How do you solve a problem like defining non-physical domestic violence?
I feel like I want to fall inside someone else’s skin tonight. Someone safe and warm and heavy. Just heavy, solid, unchanging. Not a mirage or fae, a real person who lives and breathes imperfectly but truthfully and honestly. And lovingly. The loneliness of surviving domestic violence can be excruciatingly overwhelming. Loneliness falls from the […]Read More The loneliness of a domestic abuse survivor
It’s 4:39 in the morning and I haven’t slept. My insomnia started after I married my abuser. Looking back I think my subconscious was trying to tell me to run, warning me, sending adrenalin to my limbs to help me escape but I didn’t understand. It’s become worse now that I’m free of him and […]Read More Insomnia: A late night rambling from a survivor of domestic violence